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i survived the "hell" camp !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
however, my whole body is aching! haha :P due to ________________________________________
its ok,im still alive :)
I Am Feeling: 
drained
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about me :
Fiet/Bee/Beine/Odie , whichever.
& i hate boys who talk a lot
interests :
collecting & reading chicken soup books/collecting kim hyun joong's merchandise/ violin/ guitar/reading/poetry/math/
A fan of :
Kim Hyun Joong/calvin chen/William Beckett/Daniel Feld/stephen jerzak/ryan higa
Affliates:
http://beinegiggles.blogspot.com
http://esguides.multiply.com/
http://2n2-one-and-only.blogspot.co
Ahbby,Amir,Amy,Fad,Farzanah,FIQ,HIZAN,IKA,IRR,nusrah,Nzr,Riffa,Yaszmean,
07 February 2010 @ 07:09 pm
03 February 2010 @ 08:45 pm
first , i am so glad that ive completed my english project.. one down another one more to go ! (malay-_-)
speaking of which , ytd i borrowed a malay book from th school library haha! and ya , i read it .. (still on the first few pages)
k lah big deal .. -_-
and then , this friday will be having camp (scouts) ...............................
yay , cant wait to prove eyouna cheebye wrong! :P (u know i know ah, cb)
umm what else ah ?
oya ...
i am soooooooooo tired
im on for the sake of sending mr________________________________ an email -_-
so ..since im on, might as well blog right :P
k crap
happy belated birthday zhang zhenhuan!
(feb 2)
& ya hanif too :)
& happy birthday venture sze ying!!!!!!!
speaking of which , ytd i borrowed a malay book from th school library haha! and ya , i read it .. (still on the first few pages)
k lah big deal .. -_-
and then , this friday will be having camp (scouts) ...............................
yay , cant wait to prove eyouna cheebye wrong! :P (u know i know ah, cb)
umm what else ah ?
oya ...
i am soooooooooo tired
im on for the sake of sending mr________________________________ an email -_-
so ..since im on, might as well blog right :P
k crap
happy belated birthday zhang zhenhuan!
(feb 2)
& ya hanif too :)
& happy birthday venture sze ying!!!!!!!
I Am Feeling: 
lethargic
lethargic31 January 2010 @ 02:22 pm
"We cannot have peace among men whose
hearts find delight in killing any living creature."
hearts find delight in killing any living creature."
after reading on some "animal abuse" article , i took my pen and a piece of paper and wrote a poem..
a poem about
how cruel and horrible the people in this world are..
stop animal abuse
I Am Feeling: 
crushed
crushed30 January 2010 @ 07:30 pm
26 January 2010 @ 06:26 pm
"sometimes you get to the point where all you can say is , im done
trying ."
i give up , totally .and i am never gonne ever look back again :)
i dont fucking give a damn anymore ^^
really, giving up doesnt mean your always weak ,but sometimes it just means that your strong enough to let go .
i dont think i will be moving to another journal bcos i find it a waste of my time doing it for the sake of running away from annoying retards umm i think the only person who needs to run away here is you .
you
you and
you!
you and
you!
what ? your offended ? was i even referring to you ?
I Am Feeling: 
drunk
drunk24 January 2010 @ 05:26 pm
today is a hot and sunny day.. me and nana went to the library to study for math ! like i mentioned before i'd plan to study over the weekend for this particular subj bcos tmro, unfortunately , there will be a math test :(
and i already flunk the previous quiz ! holy cow .
& ive been tooo engrossed in my revisions that i neglected my homeworks due tmro! ha ha ha crap lah
so lazy to do homeworks !
unless its math huhu ^^
crap , its always abt math !
i should stop !
I Am Feeling: 
awake
awake23 January 2010 @ 04:56 pm
few minutes to noon today i went to the nearest popular bookstore to get a new chicken soup book and a few math assessment books which my math teacher recommended ..
and guess what ?
ive done up to 10 god damn pages already haha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! still a loong more way to go until i complete that thick book ..
i'd plan to revise and study during this weekend for my upcoming math test on monday -_-
if i had not done badly for the latest quiz , i wouldnt have bothered to study for math haha!
bottom line is , i cannot fail my upcoming math test..
i wish i had tuition!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:(
anyways , as i mentioned , bought another chicken soup book to add on to my collection haha! i have like arnd 8 or so already ..
now, im waiting for tsgs book 20 to be released!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I Am Feeling: exhausted
exhaustedI Am Listening To: its over - jesse mccartney
21 January 2010 @ 05:56 pm
they say its good to keep yourself busy and occupied because you won't have the time to dwell
on the sad past
on the sad past
ever since my favourite 9pm chinese show ended , ive been sleeping early only to feel sleepy again the next morning.. dont ask .
mom say ive been stressing myself out with other stuffs -_- ok lah quite true lol
& then ive been feeling down these few days :( somethings weighing on me ...its been in here for sooooo long and i just cant seem to get it off my chest ....
dear god
I Am Feeling: listless
listless19 January 2010 @ 06:23 pm
wah seh........
hahaa anyways today i shopped at comic connections again to get khj's stuff... and i got ss501's keychain and also bought kim hyun joongs file !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
they say im crazy... i say...
im crazy for kim hyun joong
I Am Feeling: 
crazy
crazy18 January 2010 @ 05:57 pm
he doesn't know who I am
And he doesn't give a damn
And someday he'll know who I am
Then maybe he'll give a damn
And he doesn't give a damn
And someday he'll know who I am
Then maybe he'll give a damn
wow i just realized that my contact list on msn is now less than a hundred. ha ha ha guess ive been removing contacts i dont wish to see like nobody's business har ? :p
someone onced asked me, have i ever felt the lost of someone you onced loved bla3
guess what.
duh .
but then again , its all history now right ? i lost a lot of friends over the years, friends who i dont think they even remember me anymore, friends who dont give a shit about me anymore(like i care anyways) , friends who just walk past me like im some kind of stranger to them or something.. oh wait..let me get this right..
theyre not even fit to be called a 'friend' .. and maybe neither am i fit to be called their friend
haha not tryna be all emo here -_- but , you know whaT? i dont even give a shit anymore
they always say , be grateful for what you have now, or you might end up regretting it when you lose it...
im happy , and very content for what i have now........
to have the most coolest girlfriends , to have a cool family that spoils me rotten.. ( HAHA JKJK im not a spoilt brat ), and to have....................................
everything that i could have ever wished for in the whole entire universe.... ( what a liar i am haha i dont have everything i want -_-.. well... i do sometimes! )
bye!
oh for TOGETHER FANS , tonights the last episode !!!!!!! die die must watch!
I Am Feeling: 
content
contentI Am Listening To: WHERE DID YOU GO ? - A ROCKET TO THE MOON
17 January 2010 @ 02:59 pm
It's true
The moment i layed eyes on you i knew
The only wish i wanted came true
i know i am lucky that i met someone like you
thankfully i will not be as "busy" as i was 2 weeks ago.. no more duties no more responsibilities to carry out for my class! ok lah im not too sure oso... but then come to think of it , the teachers will not spare us the sufferings from hws -_-The moment i layed eyes on you i knew
The only wish i wanted came true
i know i am lucky that i met someone like you
just gotte suck it up and accept it haha :P
oh holy cow , i just remembered that i have an english project due in a weeks time and a malay project due in a months time lol and a few tests coming up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ilovebeingapartofgirlsscouts:)
I Am Feeling: calm
calmI Am Listening To: Mr Right- a rocket to the moon
16 January 2010 @ 06:39 pm
haha dont mind me.. i captured those pics while webcamming with nana dolly.. and now
im still webcamming with her hahaha
oh how was my week ?
it was as usual .. tiring ... i have to deal with cca every twice a week and tuition... but then again... im loving girl scouts :)hope i'll stay in here for 3 years and util i end my journey in esss! cos you see, ive been changing ccas since sec1 .. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
oh and.....................
i think im falling in love..
huhu ^_^
it was as usual .. tiring ... i have to deal with cca every twice a week and tuition... but then again... im loving girl scouts :)hope i'll stay in here for 3 years and util i end my journey in esss! cos you see, ive been changing ccas since sec1 .. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
oh and.....................
i think im falling in love..
huhu ^_^
I Am Feeling: 
loved
loved12 January 2010 @ 05:10 pm
I Am Feeling: blank
blank11 January 2010 @ 08:24 pm
one thing i hate most is when im being accused on something i never did.
& now my own mother don't even trust me
dont expect me to come and say sorry bcos i know i didnt do anything wrong lah please.. you were over-reacting !
i.dont.smoke !
period!
never will i admit to you on something i
never did & yes ,i just cant stomach it!
& now my own mother don't even trust me
dont expect me to come and say sorry bcos i know i didnt do anything wrong lah please.. you were over-reacting !
i.dont.smoke !
period!
never will i admit to you on something i
never did & yes ,i just cant stomach it!
I Am Feeling: 
frustrated
frustrated09 January 2010 @ 05:38 pm
but i want , cnnt ah ?
and today was a tiring day, but i had lotsa fun being a part of girls scouts :)
tmro im meeting yaszmean !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i assume next week isnt gonne be relaxing for me...
god.. im startin to hate my life haha!
just kidding :P
" so if i ever were to see you again on the streets, i'll pretend i didn't see and
turn my face away"
turn my face away"
I Am Feeling: 
full
full05 January 2010 @ 08:46 pm
yesterday i was a busy girl , today i also am -_-, dont ask abt tmro bcos yes, busy again too -_- i still dont know how i find time to even blog! haha! i have only an hour to use this comp bfore i head on to sleep! (k lah jk je nk tngk chinese drama ah babe) boohoo
tmro , i'll be having some sort of math test -_______________________________________
my day was extra fun haha after school headed to meet my PEKELS (nana riffa hizan and fiq )and had a fun and great time with them 8) suddenly all of them like mcm lupe nk makan ubat eh ? haha gerek punya kakis
ok bla3 i need to go bye
I Am Feeling: cheerful
cheerful03 January 2010 @ 07:38 pm
firstly, i wanne say
IM SORRY NANA RIFFA HIZAN & FIQ bcos i cant hang out with you
guys ytd ..
mcm biasa aku sibuk carik stationaries untk skula hoho
guys ytd ..
mcm biasa aku sibuk carik stationaries untk skula hoho
secondly i wanne say
CANT WAIT FO TMRO!
thirdly , BYE!
I Am Feeling: 
curious
curious02 January 2010 @ 06:20 pm
"Don’t keep holding on to something you have already let go of."
as mush as i dont want to accept the fact , i know someday i just have to no
matter how bad the truth will hurt..
matter how bad the truth will hurt..
so i never really recieved good news but then again , being a part of G.S. might be a blessing in disguise..
i'll never know but i hope im going to love G.S. as much as i love g.g. :(
its sad but true
and mmm , im planning to change my current email and livejournal hoho
so if your wondering...
yes im trying to run away :)
from you
so if your wondering...
yes im trying to run away :)
from you
I Am Feeling: calm
calm01 January 2010 @ 05:45 pm
What more can i say?
It's true
she never made it through a day of school
The only thing she studied was you
she knows your body better than you do
It's true
she never made it through a day of school
The only thing she studied was you
she knows your body better than you do
new year , new style , new clothes, new shoes, new bags, new hair, new attitude , new hobbies, new interests, new friends, new boyfriend ( jkjk :p ) , new... new................ new start !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok i gotte say the movie " old dogs" was hilarious like hell ! tickled our funny bones to the max i laughed so hard ! lmfao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
school is starting in a few days time... and guess what ?
IM ALL PREPARED !
HAHA i kid you not :P
i am so excited for school , excited to see who on earth is my form teacher, excited to see my subj teachers and excited to see new faces !!!!!!!! haha ! what ?
ok la umm what else? im chatting with yasmean via email! haha ! cool right ? email ? :P
its so fun *grins*
bye!
i am so excited for school , excited to see who on earth is my form teacher, excited to see my subj teachers and excited to see new faces !!!!!!!! haha ! what ?
ok la umm what else? im chatting with yasmean via email! haha ! cool right ? email ? :P
its so fun *grins*
bye!
I Am Feeling: excited
excited30 December 2009 @ 10:57 am
28 December 2009 @ 06:17 pm
"Don't call me even if I should cross your mind
Had enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better
So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause
'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed
'Cause it's over "
Had enough I don't need to hear your voice on my messages
Let's just call it quits it's probably better
So if I'm not returning your calls it's 'cause
'Cause I'm not comin' back I'm closing the door
I used to be trippin' over missin' you but I'm not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture's gone
Couldn't stand to see your smile every time you dialed
'Cause it's over "
today while at tuition my teacher noticed my khj keychain and went..
Teacher : would you pay $188 just to see him ?
me : ( thinking she was referring to lee min ho) no im not his fan .. i like this one.. *points at khj picture on my pencil case*
Teacher : would you pay $188 just to see him ?
me : yes *shows the act cute face*
me : ( thinking she was referring to lee min ho) no im not his fan .. i like this one.. *points at khj picture on my pencil case*
Teacher : would you pay $188 just to see him ?
me : yes *shows the act cute face*
hahahaha theres no way in hell will i say no !!!!!!!!! i'd do anything for khj hahaha ....
ok, i take back my words.. but, i know hes #1 in my heart foshure!!!!!!!!!!!!
why on earth is he sooooooooooooooooo adorable ?!!?!?!?!??
and ummmm ......i want a boyfriend like..
simon seville !!!!!!!!
hes yet another adorable thing in my heart hahaha 8)
hes yet another adorable thing in my heart hahaha 8)
you'll be simon seville , i'll be jeanette miller...
& then lets get married 8)
& then lets get married 8)
p.s : i love my bro... every month on his payday i'll get money from him ! huhu
I Am Feeling: crazy
crazyI Am Listening To: A rocket to the moon - like we used to
27 December 2009 @ 12:55 pm
" No one is always going to be
there ,no matter what they say or
what they promise you . you just
gotte suck it up and accept it. "
sometimes i sit and ask myself , what is the world coming to ?
& someday you are at the point where you realize people are horrible .
I Am Feeling: blank
blank26 December 2009 @ 06:26 pm
What's the point of being in love
What's the point of being with someone you can't have
I know exactly how this will end
But for some reason I can't help myself
No I just can't help myself
What's the point of being with someone you can't have
I know exactly how this will end
But for some reason I can't help myself
No I just can't help myself
isnt the video of me riff nana zan and fiq adorable?!?!?!?!?! i laughed so hard till i teared !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its just sooooooo
FUNNY 8)
lmfao roflol
if you cant live without me, why aren't you dead yet ?
I Am Feeling: cheerful
cheerful25 December 2009 @ 10:58 pm
"i want you to know , that even without you, i will succeed "
so your help is not needed 8)
be nice for what ? you think some people want to appreciate it ah ?
bull ah they want you when they need you.. they treat you like a piece of shit when theyve got what they wanted
so why bother ?
I Am Feeling: enraged
enraged24 December 2009 @ 10:57 am
What is on your bed right now?
-my pillows , teddy bear , hp
When was the last time you threw up?
-like few days ago ?
What's your favorite word or phrase?
-" buat kelaka ke pe "
Name 3 people who made you smile today?
-you you and you
What were you doing at 830 am this morning?
-watching hi-5
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
-watching ellen
What is your favorite holiday?
-what is my favourite holiday ?
Have you ever been to another country?
-yeap
What is the last thing you said aloud?
-DIAM AH
What is the best ice cream flavor?
-ive always liked chocolate
What was the last thing you had to drink?
-vitagen
What are you wearing right now?
-come together (ndp shirt) and shorts
What was the last thing you ate?
-honey stars huhu
When was the last time you ran?
-yesterday .. i haftte say i hate running.. or any kind of sports for tht
matter
What's the last sporting event you watched?
-sea games i like watching ppl play pingpong .............
If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
-africa , india to volunteer for charity & korea to meet khj
who is the last person you sent a comment/message on facebook?
-i dont remember
Ever go camping?
-yeap
Have you ever lost anything down a toilet?
-hahahahahahhahahahahahha no
What is your guilty pleasure?
-setting someone up
Do you use smiley faces on the computer alot?
-yea !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 8)
Do you drink your soda from a straw?
-not most of the time
What did your last text message say?
-" hopefully my mamy allow " from fyna
Are you someone's best friend?
-guess so
What are you doing tomorrow?
-wish my friends merry christmas haha
Where is your mom right now?
-at work
Look to your left, what do you see?
-clock
What do you think of when you think of Australia?
-farzanah my friend
Ever ridden on a roller coaster?
-you think i dare?
Do you go in at a fast food place ?
-my fave hang out spot jkjk
Do you have any friends on facebook that you actually hate?
-if i hate , i wouldnt even add him/her at the first place.. or probs
delete that person off duhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Do you have a dog?
-no but i have a rabbit
Last person you talked to on the phone?
-mom
Are you happy?
-what do you think ?
Where are you right now?
-right here
Biggest annoyance in your life right now?
-i cant seem to get indices right
Last song listened to?
-"watcha say" on mtv
Last movie you saw?
-2012
Are you jealous of anyone?
-sure do
Are you married?
-wish i am hahahahahahaha
Is anyone jealous of you?
-im not sure
Do any of your friends have children?
-yeap
Do you eat healthy?
-hehe i eat junk food a lot , cup noodles and candies .... do you find
that healthy ?
What do you usually do at home during the day?
-reading magazine , tv , online , guitar
Do you hate anyone right now?
-to the core, yes.
Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
-no i say halo
How many kids do you want when you're older?
-i want twins hahhahahahaa no actually 1 only
How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
-15 !!!!!!!!!!!!! like finallly !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How did u get one of your scars?
-i played with a candle and accidentally burnt my index finger hoho
I Am Feeling: amused
amused23 December 2009 @ 06:12 pm
pandai2 guess mane aku ahahahaha
hint : k lah im the second smallest girl :p
if i end up disappointed again , i will kill myself with a plastic knife .. hahaha k lame -_- moving on..............................
actually theres nothin else i want to say hahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
have you got anything to say ? then comment !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! me 8)
I Am Feeling: disappointed
disappointed20 December 2009 @ 06:19 pm
if i could, i would give you 2 tight slaps on your face, bitch :)
yesterday was abg boy's wedding ... when the bride threw the bouquet of flowers , i got it and i went
yesterday was abg boy's wedding ... when the bride threw the bouquet of flowers , i got it and i went
" im getting married next!!!!!!!!!"
( haha chyea , the "next" will be like 20 yrs down the road ?)
but then my hopes are dashed thanks to the little girl who grabbed the bouquet from my hands * inserts annoyed face * it was meant to be mine :( but then again , i dont really mind lah budak kecik pe kasi chance ah kahwin dulu hmmm -_- then my cousins kept on laughing at me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!( haha chyea , the "next" will be like 20 yrs down the road ?)
grrr haha
oh ya yesterday was the day i got my another award 8) " Good progress award " woohoo ok lah to be honest i still want my three hundred and fifty dollar award !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz my heart still aches but nvm i should appreciate the good progress award -_-
and yesterday was also the day i ....................... hated a few ppl to the core 8( they ruined my dreams & i wont let them get away with it........never >8)
so basically , yesterday, many kinds of emotions swirled within me ... from sad to happy, from happy to annoyed !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! from annoyed to panic hahaha why panic ? cos i thought i lost my specs again
hahahahaha false alarm ah sister 8)) then from panic to............ sleepy thats abt it hahahahaha what a drama 8P
I Am Feeling: annoyed
annoyed17 December 2009 @ 04:59 pm
haha today i stayed home online-ing like 70% of the time and 20% watching the tv 10% revision -_- i stopped revision halfway cos i was bored and that damned calculator died on me , AGAIN FOR THE SECOND TIME THIS MONTH wtf i replaced it with new batteries alr siah grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
saranghae kim hyun joong
cant believe im saying this but ive never adored any celebrities as much as i adore khj !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
please come to singapore with ss501 8( ive been voting polls for ss501 a lot !!!!!!!!!!!! k lah cut the drama... wait dont get me wrong, i still die die want ss501 to come to spore !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 8) i want to meet khj <3I Am Feeling: drunk
drunk16 December 2009 @ 06:25 pm
mate aku boleh pegi lagi besar... nk tngok ?
hahaha today is a boring day mom didnt cook lunch so she gave me some cash to buy my own meal ... had bk alone bfore heading for tuition at ep and did my tuition homeworks there too hahahaa mcm biase ah buat hoemwork last minute :p
then otp with yasmean !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^
now idk what to do except stoning in front of my comp zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz save me from boredom !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I Am Feeling: bored
bored15 December 2009 @ 09:04 am
after so much bugging from a lot of my friends , i finally agreed to create facebook -_-
im so blur alr 0_0 help me ah ?
oh ya that shahiran is spose to help but where is he -_-
add me ok if you know me ah -_-
im so blur alr 0_0 help me ah ?
oh ya that shahiran is spose to help but where is he -_-
add me ok if you know me ah -_-
I Am Feeling: cranky
cranky